My love life???

It took me quite awhile to update my blog. I got so busy with tons of school works, reading assignments, addicting TV series, and boy obsessions (or was it infatuation? to be honest, I don’t know what was it!)

This post marks my first for this year and I chose this special day because after all, this day is for St. Valentine (hello? People???)

To be perfectly honest with the whole world, I don’t feel sorry for myself because it’s Valentine’s Day and I don’t have a fucking love life. I don’t even feel depressed or sad about my situation. I have always believed that Valentine’s Day is nothing but a state of mind. I never connected it with love and romance. For me, it’s just a normal day, Kris Aquino’s birthday, my cousin’s birthday, (since I don’t have classes on Wednesdays this term) it’s my “sleep day”.

You see? I don’t think that Valentine’s Day is one hell of a special day.

You can be romantic everyday!

You can go out on a dinner with your boyfriend everyday!

You can have sex everyday!

so I really don’t understand why Valentine’s Day was such a special day for most people. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m the most mushy person you’ll ever meet in your life, I’m the most hopeless romantic person who’ll ever walk in the face of the earth. It’s just that the Valentine’s Day fever was really making me sick. I logged in to my friendster account today and read this in my bulletin board,

“sad ako ngayong valentine’s day huhuhuhuhu”

holy crap!! What a pathetic statement coming from a girl!

What I’m saying here is, if you don’t have a love life and it’s Valentine’s Day, SO??? What’s the problem? Are you gonna die? You’re depressed? Oh come on! For God’s sakes I don’t give a damn if it’s Valentine’s Day. It’s just the 14th of February, nothing special about it.

My love life???

YES! I don’t have a love life and I won’t be a hypocrite and say I’m ok. After taking up Genders class 6 months ago, I’m more convinced that I am a person who sees love as a fusion of two personalities. I don’t feel complete as a person if I don’t have someone to share my life with. Yes! I believe in soulmates, I’m waiting for magic to happen.

Unfortunately, I have none. I don’t have a boyfriend. I don’t have a love life. So what do I do now? Feel sorry for myself? Be depressed to death until someone walks in and sweep me off my feet??? Walk around wearing a placard saying ‘I NEED A BOYFRIEND!’ of course I can’t do that.

so like I always say…

Guess I’ll just have to wait for someone who’ll walk in to my life and see what will happen. And until there’s no one… I can’t do anything…

Wala e…alangan namang ipilit ko e sa wala talaga…

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